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I came up with a hypothesis.

I have came upon old time couples who do not wear their wedding bands, not because they do not want others to know, but because it is "troublesome".
I also noticed that it is not uncommon for young couples to have couple rings, bracelets, dolls, shirts etc etc.

Maybe,
  The weaker the relationship is, the more you would try to prove to others (and maybe yourselves) that you are a loving pair.

Or maybe,
When you do not know whether this relationship would last, you would thus try hard to create as many objects of memories together.

To sooth your insecurities away, and tell yourself, everything is going to be ok.

hong's dad is putting up the mirror for me now.
i can see the sea, there is the constant horning of cars and bikes waiting to get into singapore and vice versa.
There are also rumblings of the ktm train now and then, which reminds me of my aunt's old house where i grewup.
There are some structure and regularity about this chaos. it happens every morning, evening and weekends. However, green trees separate me from them. They suck in the dust, and drown the noise. Especially after a rain, I can smell the trees in the wind.

I feel like a teenager again.

I think Jun Pyo is super cute because he is so childishly sweet. But the person that melts my heart more is Yi Jung cos he has a super cute smile and single eyelids! gosh!

And I am a supporter of Jun Pyo and Jae Kyung's relationship! I think they are matchmade in heaven because Jae Kyung has the same traits that Jun Pyo likes in Geum Jan Di, futhermore, this chick is filthy rich, chio and has a grp of bodyguards, including a chinese female fighter named Chen, how cool is that??

Well, after reading the spoilers, i'm quite disappointed that they didnt turn out well, but i think it would be a happier ending for all parties if they really get married and have kids.. :/

shall move on to read my teenage magazine (August issue) now cos they are giving away free BOF posters! yay!

2 mj sessions, 2 movies.
Shot some zombies (and got killed)
had cooking session, and churned out some well-received, delicious steak and aglio olio.
last but not least, the Shen Diao "She" Lv killed a cockroach! It refused to die, so the heroes each armed with detergent sprays, chased after, sprayed, pumped (with the toilet pump) and flushed the enemy, into the drain.
Sick.

I am a happy, happy girl as I went on a shopping spree!!
ok, hong sponsored like MOST of it, but i feel great with big shopping bags in my hand! :))

my Canon Digital Rebel XTi/EOS 400D!

my 5 million dollar Crumpler Camera Bag!

next up, i want to get this!

Canon EF 50mm f1.8 MK II

and....
i got this!

I am so prepared for my 2 weeks holiday in Malaysia :)

人的一生
就像在翘翘板上行走
总是从底的那一头开始往高处走
每走一步 下一步就变得更困难
越往高处时
便越难找到平衡
当你以为自己越来越高时
其实你已经开始走下坡了
于是你发现 你永远无法站上你眼中所见的高点
来来回回挣扎许多次 都无法站上高点
你终于体认到
原来找到人生的平衡点
就是最高处

confirmed employment and got a gd payrise.
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had 1-for-1 high tea at pan pacific with hwei dear. 20 pastries, free flow of tea, cute sugar cube, great fun. :) welcome home darling.
mj sessions with yun, hwei, kelvin. he seems like a great, supportive bf.
sat hangout at hwei's house- has been so long... the piano is still there, in my old room. :) played chess with yun! haha how could i hav won her?? she played interhall chess! but it was fun.. then had a historical loss in mahjong... so i cheered myself up with last minute meet up with hong and we caught madagascar! stupid show :)

The girls are coming with me to malaysia for hols this year!! aren't we??
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trang is off to africa for a month, lonely house.
hung out with trang, david and trang's vietnam frens at some noisy, cheesy thai bar at chijmes. disappointing and uncomfortable atmosphere.
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1-for-1 mushroom pot with zee. i love mushrooms.
glad that we've been meeting up much regularly now, sigh the multiple failed attempts of having $10 ktv at chinatown. but chinatown dimsum n claypot tian ji wasnt too bad. :)
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ate botak jones with alvin fu, where i found a freaking FINGERNAIL, PAINTED IN PEARLY COLOR in my cajun chicken! had diarrhea after that. it has been a while, alvin! had a gd chat over at my house until my sister came :)
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sisters' weekend! jie and weiya came to singapore, and i bought new mattress and pillows frm ikea right before they reached. (it's 75 bucks!!) brought them had a long walk to clementi mrt to eat fei siong xiao guo mian and the clementi nasi lemak for supper. Next day, we went to Ding Tai Fung for lunch where my sis ordered their herbal chicken soup which she insisted that I should drink it all up. :))
we went to explore a sex shop which she bought 4 jumping dicks haha. i needed to shit urgently (stupid botak jones) so we both shitted at Raffles hotel toilet. the toilet exterior was so nice we missed it several times, thinking it was one of the retail stores in raffles.
Sunday, brought them to holland v for lunch. we ate al dante. i give it 4.5 stars. pizza, spaghetti, fish were all damn good!
then it was pepper lunch for dinner. and dessert with wei ya's rich uncle. his mercedes was the coolest. it was a taiwan and japan fusion dessert place at roberson quay. would check it out again to try out other food.
Anyway monday was a sad day for me. it was my sis's bd, and she headed back to malaysia. happy birthday sis!!
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min, gwen, and prisc for dinner at this tucked away, cosy ramen restaurant! very good noodles! I'll definitely go back for more.

random? disorganised? well, i'm jus catching up with myself. in case i forget the details of the time spent with ppl I love.

I forgive, and she forgives.

Let's start anew!

Motivated to improve, on myself, on my communication skills, as a person as a whole.

Stand up, stand out, do not hide, do not escape!

My tasks are menial. don't stress!

Get a massage! destressed! :))

I love my neighbourhood. shall try out foot massage maybe nxt wk! :)

I can only imagine
What it will be like
When I walk
By Your side
I can only imagine
What my eyes will see
When Your face
Is before me
I can only imagine

{Chorus}:
Surrounded by Your glory, what will my heart feel
Will I dance for You Jesus or in awe of You be still
Will I stand in Your presence or to my knees will I fall
Will I sing hallelujah, will I be able to speak at all
I can only imagine
I can only imagine
When that day comes
And I find myself
Standing in the Son
I can only imagine
When all I will do
Is forever
Forever worship You
I can only imagine

Trang, David and I. I think we have all changed compared to 2yrs ago. One thing for sure, new beliefs n values have formed and matured, thus there was more compromising to be done during the trip. Nevertheless, it was a great trip. :) I would nv trade for another grad trip if i was given a second chance.

When trying to blog my trip down, it got me thinking.. how do i describe Cambodia? is it its glorious history- Angkor tht's hailed the 7 wonders of the World; its infamous national map made up of human skulls as a reminder of its ugly past just a decade ago; or its current vibrant growing tourism?

Top in my memory list, are the people that I met in the country. Wonderful and not so wonderful, rich and the poor, local and those that call this place home for a noble cause.

What touched me are the Cambodians who remain strong and is doing their best to feed their families- the land mine victims who basked on the streets, little children and teenagers who peddled postcards, little knick knacks... "Lady, ten for one dollar." "Sir, three for one dollar."
"Shh, I give you best price." which sounded like, "Shh, I give you behh prai.." but when we didn buy, the kids still played and chatted with us, wanting to learn more English. However, when I wanted to take their photos, they gave me a face and said, "You no buy. no photo.""One photo one dollar!" and shone their melting, but not so innocent smiles.

Nobody begged.

I've listened to the NGO workers' stories, how they sacrificed their comfort zone to help people that are unrelated to them. Although yellow hair and blue eyes, they eat, laugh and sleep alongside with the people they now call friends.

I talked to the trained staff in social entreprises, who proudly and warmly conversed with me in broken English. They were given a second chance to read and to write, and to learn a skill for a better future. I see hope in their eyes and I am proud of them.

the heartwarming smiles. the sincere thank yous.
I found the strength and courage of humanity.


Best of Cambodia (out of 3Gig) finally uploaded :)